I'm listening to a new book on cd today. It's affecting my marriage. Let me explain.
The story weaves the tale of three women in various stages and situations in life who come together through a singular incident. One of the women is undergoing a divorce because her husband fell in love with her cousin. Anywho, this woman, Tess, is experiencing all these emotions as her husband and her cousin explain that they've fallen in love, and as these emotions are described on the cd, I start to feel them in my heart. And as she gets darker and more resentful in her thoughts, I get angrier with my husband.
Seriously. Through the course of the second cd, Josh and I sat side-by-side on our couch while he played games on his phone and I played games on our ipad. Finally I couldn't take it anymore. I turned to him and said, "If you ever cheated on me I'd murder you."
Josh looked up and gave me a hurt, surprised expression. "Murder me?"
I nodded vindictively, my teeth gritted. "I'd stab you."
He lowered his head and resumed his game. "Oh."
It's not fair to him, I realize this. Josh is too comfortable with life and uncomfortable with change to ever cheat on me (and, sure, he loves me too). But the thought of someone breaking a solemn promise to love and honor for time and all eternity really gets my blood boiling. I think I really would stab him.
And this is why I'm better off reading happy things. I get too involved emotionally in the feelings and the thoughts and the action. Sad stories make me sad. Adulterous stories make me mad. I can't separate fiction from reality.
I laughed so hard at this post!! That is awesome. I told Tony I was going to live with his mother like Ruth and Naomi if he were to die before I did. I never thought about if he cheated! I'd probably still live with his mom. Makes for much awkwardness, though.
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ha! I love this! I really wish I could have see his expression after your stabbing comment.
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